I am 100% apologetic from pulling My last post It was totally incohesive and I ended up just posting digital ramblings I had about the worst, the only way to say it, confrontation with My Emirati Father ever 4 hours of being exposed of who I am, in no uncertain terms I basically won about 2% of it (that is one shitty record) Unless You are into self-flagellation or are a masochist It is not fun at all, to be called out on Your behavior They are the only family I have I have not been in contact at all with My birth family in 40 Years I will not go into why I ended up as an adopted Daug… فراءة المزيد

And so, I am sitting in the Al Safwa First Lounge, DOH (sorry that is the designation for Pilots and ATC) Better than Me using IATA (which is what is printed on Your baggage and that reservation agents use, (IATA: DIA, ICAO: OTBD) and it gets even more complicated, Raw METAR, PIREPS, and on and on But let Me get back to My state of Mind I said before that I have mixed emotions So much so, that half way through the fight from NBO to DOH, I sort of lost it The flight I am on is a late one In 1st class, there were very few people About halfway in a 6-hour flight, I was doodling on a legal… فراءة المزيد

I am about to go to the Airport for My endless trip to Israel, that will last about 11 hours in flight time and about 1 day and a half in total time My mood is of mixed emotions Lots of long layovers and I am sure the way I will look to the FA's, it will be an 11 hour confessional The worst of it all will be sitting in Dubai for 8 hours My adopted Father (The one I never had in NY) is meeting Me there It will be a few minutes of small talk, then the inevitable dressing down !! I totally expect to be told that I am still Insolent, Insubordinate, a Brat, a Jezebel and that I am Backsliding… فراءة المزيد

Nothing Super Special going on at the Moment, typing this on My iPad Mini in My kitchen I just awhile ago served My soon to be Husband and Esmée Dinner Tuna steaks, salad and a bread I made, Cabernet Blanc and some Sparkling water After I put it on the table, I used My best waiter routine "Is there anything else You need ? If not I will in the Kitchen if You need Me" So I left and went in there, picked at some fruit and had a Yogurt I am soon going up to My bedroom and start writing out a flowchart of what I need to do in Jerusalem after I leave Tel Aviv I have My main Editing and Soun… فراءة المزيد

It is about 3:00 AM Here I am working through the night (I am a complete Fucking, Dobbin, pet name in the UK for a workhorse) My Sister is working through the night also I am at the moment, reading some Dry Shit news, While I listen to them Fuck all night long I read everyday, the CIA World Outlook, The FBI news and some other total Fucking Snoozefest Shit No one except Me, besides some Super Nerds into Politics and World affairs, read that all of that crap Motherfucker, it is around 2:00 AM, and She has My Fiancée going again !! I ignore it (I have too) She has that Sexual power and… فراءة المزيد

My mind is going at 100 Fathom's Per Hour (FPH) I can not sleep, as usual, and I am doing all of the groundwork, ahead of time, for the 3 weeks or so, of filming I made Dinner tonight and served it for Esmée and My Fiancée, then I went back into My kitchen and ate there all by Myself Shit, I did not even use dishes, just ate out of the pots and pans, while typing on My laptop I am 100% divorcing Myself from anything here, but Housework and other Shit The only way I can deal with all of it, is to deny Myself every thing I Fucking, cleaned it up later and went to My bedroom to do some adde… فراءة المزيد

Sort of a Different Post Today Since Last Night, I have completely, (to a degree), cut Myself off from everything pleasurable No Drinking, Smoking and other Shit for at least about 1 month or 2 I am staying in a guest bedroom, (right across from Our bedroom), tonight, until I leave for Israel on Sunday I hired a Housekeeper for 2 Months, because I know Esmée all too well They will probably not eat at Home at all, since She loves that eating out Shit I am trying to keep My focus as professionally as I can We are using 3 locations in Tel Aviv for around 3 weeks or so and then I go to Jeru… فراءة المزيد

I am sure if You have read My Posts, I constantly have My hands full with things to do I am just the type of Person, that if I do not have a ton of things to do, I go stir crazy Shit, I hardly ever sit down, I work my Ass off (So to speak, LOL) I do things, whether I want to do them or not I am spending all day, Today, cleaning my home, before I am gone for over 1 Month In between making, 3 meals for all of Us It is why I did everything, mostly Myself, when I am entertaining these days Last night I vacated My bedroom and Esmée took it over I am becoming Celebrate, just to stay f… فراءة المزيد

Sorry, I did not have the time to write anything Yesterday Esmée is here now, and My hands are full of Shit to do!! Spent one-half of Today dealing with the Automobile Dealership, picking up Her car I was dressed down as usual, Esmée looked like She should be picking up a Rolls Royce I, Fucking, hate dealing with and purchasing a new Car, signing Shit and then "Hurry up and Wait" "Your car is being prepped; it shouldn't take long" My Ass, it is not going to take long!! Then when it is finally ready, the inevitable, "Let Me show You things You need to know about" I was thinking, you do n… فراءة المزيد

Now that My Parties are over till, Valentine’s Day and Easter I can now look forward to My obligations to Vixen Films Not really !! I was contacted Yesterday, and I am to be in Tel Aviv at various locations, as the Sex stand in It is not 3 weeks (as I was told), but now 1 month (editing for about 4 days, Shit !!) I am not looking forward to (Gang Bang scenes and all the other Shit at all !!) 12 Men at a time, Fucking, Christ !! (I am too Old for all of that) But as I always do, I will suck it up From NBO (Jomo Kenyatta International Airport, Nairobi, Kenya) to TLV (Ben Gurion Airport,… فراءة المزيد

This Has To Have Been My Best New Years Parties Ever And I Hope It Was Yours Also !! I do not really have a handle on all the cleanup yet I basically did not sit down at all for 2 days I was bringing food out, constantly and picking up glasses and plate Over the 2 days, I finished off 4 bottles of Champagne One of the Fun parts, was My Slow Striptease !! And second best part was all throughout, the 2 Parties, was being asked by Women and some Men if They could Help I knew exactly why they asked, and I replied "Sure, Thank You" So in We went to My Kitchen and I gave them the free P… فراءة المزيد

My last Post for 2021 Today, I had something Interesting, Unexpected and Really Erotic happen On one of the Modeling websites, I am represented on, I was asked for Friendship and to do a Photoshoot with an absolutely Stunning Model in Nairobi named Veronica She is almost half My age, Black and has a shaved Head (age 27) Christ, I will definitely, do that, sooner than later I want to make love to Her so badly, I tingle all over (I have not felt that attracted to a Woman as much as that, in a very long time) I will most likely ask Her Hell, Maybe Her and I could do Stand in Work for Vi… فراءة المزيد

The New Year is just about upon Us, and I would not mind, next Year, having any of My Friends on here to ask Me to write about anything in My life, that I have not written Yet Something different for Me to do Tomorrow, because of My planned festivities, I will not write too much at all, until 2022 I am out on My back porch, getting buzzed as usual, with all My little Friends To all of You, a Joyful New Year and have a great time celebrating it !! So, I will leave You with some truly inspiring thoughts on the New Year to come It is not about Resolutions, that we all have a hard… فراءة المزيد

Probably a good time before New Years, with all the things I am expected to do and all of the things I desire to do next Year, to explain a part of my screwy personality I was taught from an early age ( S*xt*en to My early Forties) That Duty comes first (Cums !! HaHaHa…), by Gisse and an older Man in the UAE. Then Honor and finally Country (or Cuntry) I believe in that wholeheartedly My point is that in all situations, that when someone above You says jump, you do it, whether You like it or not But that is not to say that You always do what is asked of You blindly or take Bullshit from any… فراءة المزيد

I am still thinking about My News Years Party and perhaps wearing something different than what I wrote previously. Purely for the fact, that Esmée and I are going to dress as Bondage Bunnies for My Easter Party Using My Black Leather Harnesses and other Shit This is My Time to Shine !! I get to be the Hostess, Cook, Waiter and the Fucking Entertainment !! I have also planned a New Year’s Day Brunch at 1:00 PM Not absolutely, sure what to wear then, maybe just a 2022, New Year’s Sash LOL Possibly this, with My Tits going all over the place !!… فراءة المزيد

I am truly Sorry that I missed a Post for 12.27.2021 At My Christmas Party, after 11:30 PM, I took My Bra off in My Kitchen, and The festivities started up again, It didn’t end until, 2:00 AM And then Being totally def*led My Fiancée for at least a half hour!! I finally crashed for a bit Spent most of the 27th, Figuring how to walk again after being completely and totally vi*lated, to within an inch of My life (LOL) and then dealing with Shit everywhere throughout My Home I am still cleaning up, in between Making the Meals and everything else Now, I have a very short turn around for the… فراءة المزيد

My Party was so Much of a Success That I will have to write about it later Spent most of Today cleaning up the Destruction It went well past 2:00 PM, Today the 26th Suffice it to say My Fiancée, Being the Big Ass, Huge, Fucker He is, and after everyone finally left (He is 6'6" and I am a Munchkin, to say the least) I had 100%, Zero choice in what He did to Me He, absolutely, Ov*rpowered Me, R*vished, Vi*lated, and with out a question, F*rcefully, Desp*iled Me !! His Cock is so Huge, that I felt like, the, Fucker would come out of My mouth, with every single, Thrust !! To put in per… فراءة المزيد

Just a Short post I went to Christmas Mass, with My Fiancée Ended not too long ago I completely embarrassed Myself, because I forgot to turn off My cellphone I owned it, and I stood up and heartfully apologized to the Congregation Please, Bear in mind. I am the only White Person there Even as a Jew, I participated in the Eucharist I love My Fiancée to pieces, so what the Hell !! Now is the Countdown to My Party And so, This Is Amélie, Signing off for Now Enjoy All of Your Holiday Traditions !! I Love all of You !!… فراءة المزيد

I just want to leave all My Friends here, some of the best Quotes, from very inspirational writers I am even going to Midnight Mass And to wish all of You; Joyeux Noël et Bonne Année ! Paix sur Terre et Bonne Volonté à Tous les Hommes Siku kuu ya Krismasi Mwaka Mpya wa Heri Njema “I heard the bells on Christmas Day Their old, familiar carols play, And wild and sweet The words repeat Of peace on earth, good-will to men!” Henry Wadsworth Longfellow "He had been to see Mrs. Ehrlich just before starting home for the holidays, and found her making German Christ… فراءة المزيد

I am essentially, not getting any sleep at all I learned from Marcus, and My work as a troubleshooter, to operate on Zero rest From Marcus even more so, because He liked to train Me in that SOG Shit, of going on forever without rest !! Fuck, He loved pushing Me in to 40° water in Lake Ontario and say, "Stay in there Amélie until You chatter and turn Blue !!" "Yes I will, Roger Wilco, Sir !!" So for a complete turn around from Holiday Shit Me getting ready to Hunt "Wabbits" in Upstate NY This is all of the Shit , I actually own (but My rifle is different now) But I do not own the "Hel… فراءة المزيد