I do the same thing only I get into it with a dildo and vibrating toy. My fantasy is to find the right guy to play with who understands that's my "mangina" I'd like him to lick it into a flathering orgasm. I of course would be his personal cock worshipping sub-slave and we'd get together whenever we felt the urge. In my fantasy he is 110% alpha-straight and am his secret dl gay male lover.